It's been one week since I've been home. And in this past week, I've felt more emotions than I ever have in my whole entire life. I wish there was a way I could turn my mind off. I think too much about things. I take way too much stuff personally and only end up wondering what I did wrong. This morning I woke up to the nicest message I have ever received in my entire life. I know I've got something good going for me, but there is about a 90% chance I will fuck it up. Because that's what I usually end up doing. I really hope I don't, but knowing me, it's inevitable.
I'm also really sick of fake ass people. I thought getting out of high school was going to put an end to petty stuff like this. But I was clearly wrong. This last week I've realized whose real, and whose fake. And way too many people I thought were real, ended up being the complete opposite. Just have to start distancing myself from those people though. Really sucks, but I guess that's how things work out.
The weekend was good though. Best mood I've been in since I got back. My party Friday night was an excellent second celebration of my birthday. And the Trash Talk show last night was a pretty good time that mostly involved drawing on my car windows, barfo/woody woodpecker, screaming at the thunderstorm, missing war hungry, dumpster diver and now party hits with 3 girls I know I'm gonna end up really missing when I leave.
Another thing, I need to learn to really start trusting people. Atleast the people I know have no intention of hurting me -or I guess that would be the person who has no intention of hurting me; Otherwise I'm going to end up driving myself crazy with all of the wondering..
I'm gonna go spend all day sleeping.
4 comments:
Saturday was awesome, I wish you weren't leaving like 2 weeks after I met you =[
cant wait til friday
i feel you on that first half. also, where you goin?
don't leeeaveeeeeeeee! :( i'm gonna miss all that shit so much
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