you're the reoccuring kind

you never really leave my mind.





edit 2/23:
i cant even remember the last time i was this sick. fml.

just lost

the one thing i cared about most in a matter of 40 seconds.




edit:
its been about 45 minutes since i wrote the first part of this post. and in the 45 minutes, i realized a lot. everything's going to be a lot different now. that is all.

Things I'd Like To Do

And Soon:



-Get my friends back
-Hot air balloon ride
-Go to the zoo
-NYC, asap.
-Disney World with a bunch of people
-Art Museum
-Visit Dan in Chicago for more than 4 hours
-Finish my room up
-Paint a building
-Huge shopping spree
-Start my sleeve

i'll probably add more to this soon.



edit: i lied. i don't want my 'friends' back, or atleast not most of them. I'd rather not associate myself with a bunch of fake, shit talkers who only do stuff to better themselves.

i want out

i don't want to be here anymore.

Things I learned this weekend:

i am impulsive, 18 hours might not seem that long when you first think about it but it sucks being in a car that long, having a cold & being stuck in a car for 18 hours isn't fun either, if you stay awake for 35 hours straight- you will crash, ohio looks small but is the most boring state to drive thru ever, chicago is pretty looking at night but there's way too much traffic there in the morning, the mississippi river is HUGE, there is a disgusting amount of roadkill on 80, all the rest stops on 80 look exactly the same, and the turnpikes are waaaay too damn expensive.



it was fun though and well worth it. my friends are great and so are all the new people i met. and even though it really sucked, it was more of an adventure than flying and i probably would do it again. not anytime soon though.
i'm going back to sleep.

you are replaceable

and it bothers you because i'm not. you won't find another me. you can try, but those other girls won't compare. you need me, but i don't need you. and i don't think i ever really did.





this is such a good feeling.

Got Accepted :D

So, I applied to do this volunteer thing over the summer. Where for a month I'll go to either Australia, New Zealand, Thailand, Costa Rica, Ecuador, Eastern Europe, South Africa or the Dominican Republic, and for 2 weeks do a bunch of volunteer work. Which will range from building houses to working with the rain forests, and tons of crap like that. then the second two weeks is a pure adventure. white water rafting, climbing glaciers. So I applied hoping i'd get it, AND I GOT ACCEPTED. I'm so excited. Now I just gotta save money & raise money. ahhhh, hopefully this works out.