end of summer

definitely ended this summer right within the past 2 weeks. tih last weeeekend. then this weekend had people over friday night to hang out and had a goooood time with some of my best friends. yesterday got my new phone then chilled at mahressa's with some great kids. last night, took had a car ride with riss, preston, ott & keith to Edison, NJ and saw Mother of Mercy and Ceremony. hellllllyeeeeaaaaa. saw kids i hardly see but really love. applebees trip afterwards with the greatest group. got home at almost 330, didnt get to bed til 4. and now i have work, but i get out early today. OH and i got the job at oakley. holllllla ! everything's so great.

great weekend.

This weekend absolutely ruled and was worth all the money i spent and gas i used. this is hardcore was the most fun i've had in a longgg time. the only thing that would've made it better would've been if i could've gone friday night. yesterday and today ruled though. saw a lot of great bands, a lot of great people & met some new people too, all with marissa of course. haha. all around a really awesome weekend.
my whole body hurts and i've never been this tired in my life.
SEE YA.

college ?!

I'm applying to schools to go in the spring semester. I'm gonna see what happens from there. If i get accepted, I just might go. These schools range from all over the place though. Philly to other parts of PA to New York to Boston to Florida to out west. Guess we'll just see what happens though. I want to get outta here though. for sure.


This post is all about school & boring.
Sorry. :(

i should've gone away to school. and i really wish i knew what the hell i was thinking deciding to stay around. actually, i know exactly what i was thinking and it was really dumb logic. OH WELLLL. It'd be nice to go somewhere in the spring. but if that doesnt work, ill be outta here in May hopefully.
Right now i'm watching the steve wilkos show and every show he has is like the exact same show. lame. But i'm eating this graham cracker jawns and they are BANGIN'. And Jamie brought me back Apple Bread from Lancaster, and it is SO GOOD.
Last night I went to the diner with a few of my favorite people and said bye to Dan. Because now he is in Chicago. waaaaahhh :( Everyone is leaving.

Im thirsty. Here's me and dan.

its not so easy when youre all alone

and i wonder if im alone in your head.



i've listened to this song about 26 times in a row. until today i'd forgotten about it. then it popped up on shuffle. and it's a really great song. that makes a lot of sense in a lot of aspects in my life.

i'm finally starting to get my life in order. finally took some of the steps i needed to take. got in touch with people that i needed to have back in my life. and i'm happy. i've set goals. i've made plans. and it's all really overwhelming but it's also really exciting. for the first time in a long time, im not worried about anything. im not stressin' and it's a wonderful feeling.
this time a year ago, i never would've thought things would be where they are at now. a year ago, i thought things were going to stay the way they were forever. the friendships and good times would go on and on and on, but that's not the case. nothing lasts forever. and although at times, that may be a real bummer, it is inevitable. i learned a lot the past year and a half/two years though from all of the people i've met. i've learned how to be myself, i've learned your real friends will stand by you even when things are tough. but change is something we all have to accept, no matter how much we may want to reject it. every chapter of your life begins, and each chapter ends. you live and you learn. you take the good times as they come, and learn from the bad times. you keep old friends, you loose old friends and you make new friends. you make new memories, but you don't forget the old. pretty soon, everyones going to be going their own ways. and although this is scary, considering like i said, a year ago it felt everyone and everything would stay the same forever, it has to happen. the last two years have been the best two years of my life though that i will absolutely never forget. and i thank everyone for that.
and so, although another chapter is ending, another one is about to begin.

running in circle after circle

well, look at that ..two posts in one day. amazing.
i have a million things running through my head. i've started this post 4 times and deleted each one because i don't know how to say what i want to say/think i can get across anything i want to say. nothing feels right right now. nothing IS right right now. i've got this horrible feeling that i just want to go away. i'm never opening up to another person though. ever.
i don't even feel like doing this anymore. bye.

i was a fool, you were my friend..

don't know why i can't keep up with this shit, ever. my bad.
not much has been going on. actually, that's a lie. everything's completely changed over the last 4 months or so. but i guess that's how life works out. lately i've had the shittiest attitude towards so much stuff. i start classed in less than a month, and already don't give a shit about them. whatever though, only one year and i'm out.
i'm tired of shitty people. and how i somehow always end up letting them get involved in my life. i'm real tired of people who cannot mind their own business. and i'm also really tired of people who say shit they don't relaly mean. people need to learn to just be honest from the start, so less people get hurt. on the plus side though, i've kept that tie severed with the people i wanted to for the most part. almost let 'em back in, then realized what i was doing. now ive just let new shitty people in, WOOOO. nahhhtt.
whatever. ranting about things won't change anything.
i got back from south carolina beginning of this week, which absolutely ruled. and i wouldnt mind if i were still there. but that was basically just a week escape and now things are back to the same exact way before i left, and that really sucks. im gonna be in ocean city for the next week, so that's pretty sweet. but when i get back, i gotta try to get serious about shit. and i really don't wanna. :[
anway to sum this up, i really don't care about anything.