its not so easy when youre all alone

and i wonder if im alone in your head.



i've listened to this song about 26 times in a row. until today i'd forgotten about it. then it popped up on shuffle. and it's a really great song. that makes a lot of sense in a lot of aspects in my life.

i'm finally starting to get my life in order. finally took some of the steps i needed to take. got in touch with people that i needed to have back in my life. and i'm happy. i've set goals. i've made plans. and it's all really overwhelming but it's also really exciting. for the first time in a long time, im not worried about anything. im not stressin' and it's a wonderful feeling.
this time a year ago, i never would've thought things would be where they are at now. a year ago, i thought things were going to stay the way they were forever. the friendships and good times would go on and on and on, but that's not the case. nothing lasts forever. and although at times, that may be a real bummer, it is inevitable. i learned a lot the past year and a half/two years though from all of the people i've met. i've learned how to be myself, i've learned your real friends will stand by you even when things are tough. but change is something we all have to accept, no matter how much we may want to reject it. every chapter of your life begins, and each chapter ends. you live and you learn. you take the good times as they come, and learn from the bad times. you keep old friends, you loose old friends and you make new friends. you make new memories, but you don't forget the old. pretty soon, everyones going to be going their own ways. and although this is scary, considering like i said, a year ago it felt everyone and everything would stay the same forever, it has to happen. the last two years have been the best two years of my life though that i will absolutely never forget. and i thank everyone for that.
and so, although another chapter is ending, another one is about to begin.