9:50

It is 9:50 on a Friday night, I don't work tomorrow, and I'm sitting at home. Fuck my life.

This week sucked. All I did was work. I feel like it's all really pointless though because I just keep finding myself in more debt that I need to keep paying off, so therefore I'm barely able to save any money right now and I feel like I'm getting no where.
I hate change. I know that it is inevitable, but I really hate it. Atleast, I hate change that I don't want to happen. If I want it to happen, then it's okay. But I hate unexpected bad change, and I really hate when it happens out of no where. I don't know how things can go from seeming really super awesome, to really bad in a matter of 2 days. And for no reason. Just out of no where. I really felt like I mattered before, and now I feel like I'm second best ..if not lower. I'm probably just being a fucking psycho about this, but whatever. No one has to agree with me on anything I write in this stupid thing.
Either way, I feel really alone right now.
& I hate it.



p.s one sweet thing: i'm getting tattooed tuesday morning for free down the city.
and i'll be on the radio with preston and steve. that's kinda cool, i guess?
someone who has nothing to do all tuesday should come with my mom & me. word.