i'm seriously bummin' right now. i keep thinking about one thing inperticular, and it's driving me nuts. i don't think it would bother me so much if i knew what went wrong. or how this thing ..that seemed really awesome, ended up the huge mess that it is now. there isn't even anyone to really blame, because no one is really at fault. even if i had to place blame, i couldnt. because i cared too much, and you didn't care at all. i think thats what drives me craziest. how you can put so much effort into something, then get absolutely nothing in return. that's the worst feeling in the world. the way i feel right now is the worst. just about a year, and more has happened in the past 12 months then ever, most of it involving you. too bad you're not as great as you came off as.
p.s one week & i'm outta here.
Monday, September 29, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
!#&%*@$!&
don't ask.
you'll know if it has to do with you.
1. you need to back off. you're holding on and need to let go. you have just begun to annoy me considering you are a huge hypocrite and have no room to talk about anything you say. i wish you would just go away.
2. i cant stand who you have become. you've always had your flaws, but you've let them overcome you and i hate it. you're not the same fun person because you only care about two things. since the end of summer, you've quickly become someone i don't know or really want to know, and i want the old you back.
3. i wish you weren't such a huge piece of shit.
you'll know if it has to do with you.
1. you need to back off. you're holding on and need to let go. you have just begun to annoy me considering you are a huge hypocrite and have no room to talk about anything you say. i wish you would just go away.
2. i cant stand who you have become. you've always had your flaws, but you've let them overcome you and i hate it. you're not the same fun person because you only care about two things. since the end of summer, you've quickly become someone i don't know or really want to know, and i want the old you back.
3. i wish you weren't such a huge piece of shit.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
H00KED UP.
This is gonna be short because I have a job interview today.
Last night was the bomb. First off saw LOTS of people that I don't see that much, which always makes things fun. When we got to the croc rock we didnt have to wait in the 329820 hour long line because of being on the guest list so that was another huge plus in the night. Went inside and watched Crime In Stereo. Afterwards ISHC played whichhhh was interesting. Went outside then and marissa asks a kid to bum his lighter and the dudes like oh sure, then they're asking us who we're there to see, annnd marissa & ott straight up tell them a day to remember blows, and it turns out we're talking to fys's drummer and adtr's drummer. funniest thing ever. fys played and they were sweet. then we go outside for awhile bc adtr stinks, then head upstairs with scott and maaaaxed out with all the bands and hayleyXparamore, sipppped on some free coronas, and watched new found glory from the balcony jawn. sweet night.
The weekends almost here. I leave in 12 days.
HEEEEYYYYLLYEEESSS.
Last night was the bomb. First off saw LOTS of people that I don't see that much, which always makes things fun. When we got to the croc rock we didnt have to wait in the 329820 hour long line because of being on the guest list so that was another huge plus in the night. Went inside and watched Crime In Stereo. Afterwards ISHC played whichhhh was interesting. Went outside then and marissa asks a kid to bum his lighter and the dudes like oh sure, then they're asking us who we're there to see, annnd marissa & ott straight up tell them a day to remember blows, and it turns out we're talking to fys's drummer and adtr's drummer. funniest thing ever. fys played and they were sweet. then we go outside for awhile bc adtr stinks, then head upstairs with scott and maaaaxed out with all the bands and hayleyXparamore, sipppped on some free coronas, and watched new found glory from the balcony jawn. sweet night.
The weekends almost here. I leave in 12 days.
HEEEEYYYYLLYEEESSS.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
cold sheets
Every morning when I wake up it is freezing cold in my room, and I love it. I am obsessed with this changing of weather. Time for hoodies, jackets, long sleeves and boots. Fall is the best season ever. I'm so happy.
So far this week has been a decent one. I'm not even minding going to classes much this week/hating my life the entire time I'm there, which is good I suppose. Monday I went to class then met up with Preston and Ryan for some lunch at Taco Bell then went down to the city with them and Ott met up with us. Walked all over, ate at Cosi - Pretty sweeeet time. Yesterday I had class then took care of a couple of things. Eventually chilled with Ryan and watched weird movies till we picked Mikey up. Went to KFC with them then back to mikeys and chilllllled there. Ott came over and we just maxed out and watched scary movies. Then i came home and passssed out. ANDDD todayyy i had class and tonights NFG/FYS/ADTR at croc rock. should be a pretttty sick show.
I'm stoked for the weekend. Except I sort of dread weekends now too, because I during the weekends I have no classes to worry about or anything, and its just basically 3 days to kick it and do nooothin' but it only lasts till Sunday then when Monday rolls around I dont want to do shit that I have to do. BLOWS.
I leave for Iowa in less than 2 weeeeks.
And when I get back Marissa & I are going up to Boston at some point. yeeeahh.
I should clean my room and go to the gym.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
beat.
this weekend ruled.
friday night marissa and i went to drew's house for that show. and got to hang out with danielle, kate, and ali, which is always an extrememly funny time. except it was so coooold, but it really wasnt that cold im just not use to this weather at all ! so then marissa and i RAN to my car and blasted the heat and headed to a party up near blue bell. which was pretty fun. riss wreeeeckked 'em in pong. ;) eventually we left there and headed STRAIGHT to wawa to pee because no way were we making it to doylestown. eventually we got to jon's though with dion & a couple other people. and it was the funniest thing of my entire life. and i finally watched i now pronounce you chuck and larry. which was sweet. finally around 4 marissa and i came back to my house and passsed out.
saturday we woke up WAY too early and cleaned up my room. then i took her home & met dion for lunch and shopping. :) afterwards i headed home and my bike was at my house so i rode it around for alittle then had dinner with my maaaa and deb. finalllly got all ready then and picked riss BACK up and headed down to the city. met up with kevin and a few other dudes and chilled for awhile with them. rode our bikes all over. then finally went to karls apartment and partied with allll those kids and it ruleeed. eventually we somehow rode our bikes back to uarts and crashed at kevins.
THEN this morning, we left SO fucking early. and then they shut down all the streets right near city hall because of some dummmmb marathon going on. and we literally sat at a traffic light over a half an hour bc the cops were there and the marathon people were running down the road we had to cross. sucked so bad. but we finallly made it home and then i worked and came home and died afterwards.
all in all though, the weekend was off the hoooook. which is good because for the next 2 weeks i cant do too much because i gotta save as much of my money as i can because im leaving for iowa in 2 weeks ! i'm so stoked.
i'm tired.
friday night marissa and i went to drew's house for that show. and got to hang out with danielle, kate, and ali, which is always an extrememly funny time. except it was so coooold, but it really wasnt that cold im just not use to this weather at all ! so then marissa and i RAN to my car and blasted the heat and headed to a party up near blue bell. which was pretty fun. riss wreeeeckked 'em in pong. ;) eventually we left there and headed STRAIGHT to wawa to pee because no way were we making it to doylestown. eventually we got to jon's though with dion & a couple other people. and it was the funniest thing of my entire life. and i finally watched i now pronounce you chuck and larry. which was sweet. finally around 4 marissa and i came back to my house and passsed out.
saturday we woke up WAY too early and cleaned up my room. then i took her home & met dion for lunch and shopping. :) afterwards i headed home and my bike was at my house so i rode it around for alittle then had dinner with my maaaa and deb. finalllly got all ready then and picked riss BACK up and headed down to the city. met up with kevin and a few other dudes and chilled for awhile with them. rode our bikes all over. then finally went to karls apartment and partied with allll those kids and it ruleeed. eventually we somehow rode our bikes back to uarts and crashed at kevins.
THEN this morning, we left SO fucking early. and then they shut down all the streets right near city hall because of some dummmmb marathon going on. and we literally sat at a traffic light over a half an hour bc the cops were there and the marathon people were running down the road we had to cross. sucked so bad. but we finallly made it home and then i worked and came home and died afterwards.
all in all though, the weekend was off the hoooook. which is good because for the next 2 weeks i cant do too much because i gotta save as much of my money as i can because im leaving for iowa in 2 weeks ! i'm so stoked.
i'm tired.
Friday, September 19, 2008
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