things i really dislike.

being broke, $130 speeding tickets, working every day, being cold all the time, fighting over the dumbest stuff with one person i care about a lot, distance, losing people i really care about, bills, growing up, my hair, not being excited for the holidays at all this year, ebay, my cellphone, wasting my life away, bad frenz.




on the plus side, the next couple of weekends will be fun.
and i'm going out to iowa in 23 days. :) catch ya laterr.

I want to go

to the beach. Even though it's cold out.
It's one place I can always clear my mind and figure things out.


Let's go.

do i still love you?

absolutely. there's not a doubt in my mind. through all my anger, my ego, i was always faithful in my love for you. that i ever made you doubt it is the greatest mistake in a life full of mistakes. i can tell you that i love you as many times as you can stand to hear it, but it doesn't set us free. all it does is remind us that love is not enough. it's not even close.




sometimes, i really hate the way things work out.
and i hate how i feel like no one even understands this.
this post is pointless.

plans.

i hate how i have to keep changing all my plans. i hate bills, i hate money. i hate how i feel like i cannot afford anything. i really just hope that things work out. this is something i really want. i know it'll happen eventually, im just so impatient. i want things to work out as i have them planned now. but who knows. im so stressed.
:(

Obama '08

This is such a huge night in history. We're so lucky to get to experience this. Amazing how much this country has changed over the years. I have a lot of issues with some things in this country, but it is clear that there is also so much possible. Obama's the next President of the United States, that's awesome. John McCain's speech was incredibly respectable though, and I feel like he'll still help out this country a lot.
Obama '08 ! I love this.

philadelphia.

tonight i realized i'm really gonna miss this city when i leave. and all the crazy ass people in it. this weekend was a good one. friday night was halloWEEN, ended up down the city with marissa, kelsey and evan. met some cool people, had some INTERESTING experiences, & crashed at kelseys in temple with marissa, ev & kyle. came home this morning and crrrasssshhhed for another few hours. then tonight was QUITE enjoyable. picked marissa BACK up and headed back down the city - having a FUNK SESH the entire drive there. met up with kelsey in temple and drove down to center city. walked down south street. met some kid with a sweet jacket that just broke up with his girlfriend and had beer, hahahahah. met some raaandom ass dude from some metal band that played down there tonight and invited us to some party. headed BACK to temple but took some detours so we could bring some joy to phillllaaadelphiaa ! with our 80s FUNK. everyone on every street corner of broad street got into it and danced around the streets to BRICKKK HOUSE with us. love the city, love the people. gonna miss it ! next weekend will be TIGHT though.

and on a more serious note i need to quit being such a dumb bitch about things before i ruin something GOOD. haven't been this happy in awhile. i love it.
i need to be up so early, g'nighhhhtt.

dancing, alcohol, drugs.

"I know what you mean about wishing somebody wasn't there, though. It's just usually it's myself that I wish I could get away from. Seriously, think about this. I have never been anywhere that I haven't been. I've never had a kiss when I wasn't one of the kissers. Y'know, I've never, um, gone to the movies, when I wasn't there in the audience. I've never been out bowling, if I wasn't there, y'know making some stupid joke. I think that's why so many people hate themselves. Seriously, it's just they are sick to death of being around themselves. Let's say that you and I were together all the time, then you'd start to hate a lot of my mannerisms. The way every time we would have people over, uh, I'd be insecure, and I'd get a little too drunk. Or, uh, the way I'd tell the same stupid pseudo-intellectual story again, and again. Y'see, I've heard all those stories. So of course I'm sick of myself. But being with you, uh, it's made me feel like I'm somebody else. You know the only other way to lose yourself like that is, um, you know, dancing, or alcohol, or drugs, and stuff like that."




i hate distance.
i'm so impatient.
halloween was fun.
wish my "friends" supported me.